Anyway, life has been busy. We had friends and family come out and visit over the last couple months and it was nice having them out here. I've been working like crazy and apparently it's paying off because they really like me at work. I was offered a really high position but it's not going to come into play for a while and honestly, I don't know if I'll still be in Colorado by then but it's still nice to be the only one considered for this position. I'd tell you but, they told me not to tell. I doubt anyone from work reads my blog but, you never know. With work and trying to balance the house chores and trying to squeeze in a workout session it gets pretty tiring and it's just busy. hah.
It's a Saturday morning and I actually get to relax a bit. I should be cleaning up the house, trust me it needs it, but I just wanted some time to catch my breath. Colorado life has been going great. The husband and I are more than happy. I'm really bad at calling my family back home. He's really good at it and it just makes me hope that my family doesn't think I don't love them or anything. I'm thankful to be working and happy to have the few friends that I have out here but, it definitely isn't like being close to your family and your old friends.
Every night before bed I just kind of lay there with the TV on and miss having friends. I miss having someone to talk to about life. I miss the encouragement and advice sessions. I miss hearing about someone else's life and just laughing. Laughing about silly things that only we could ever understand.
Lucinda and I have been friends since freshman year of high school. We've done basically everything together. Sometime before moving out here our friendship just changed. She got different friends and I felt left out. She always tried to include me but it wasn't the same. I felt like she took their opinions and thoughts over mine. She only wanted to hang out with my on her down time. She got a boyfriend, her family came back into the picture and I just didn't feel as important to her. I tried telling her but not hard enough I guess. And I'm sure she felt like she was out of my life because I just stopped trying. I didn't see the point anymore. I miss her though. I miss the kind of friendship we had. I miss talking to her and laughing and just hanging out. I feel like even if we try to patch things up now it wouldn't be the same. Missing her just seems a bit more magnified now that I'm out here with no one. Again, I have a few friends but they don't know my like she did.
Cynthia is a friend I have had for... forever. We met at church when I was so young... we always got mistaken for sisters and we still do. We go such long periods without seeing each other but when we do meet up it's like nothing has changed. Before I left California she made such an effort to hang out as often as possible. I thought we got pretty well connected again. I moved out here and it's been hard. I love her and she loves me and we try to talk as often as we can but, it still sucks.
I dunno. I know that I feel lonely. I have my husband and my puppy. Cali really brightens up my day instantly but, you still want a friend around. And my husband is amazing and really is everything I could need but especially when he deploys and I'm out here alone. Then what? :[
Eh, what are you gonna do. It's just another day in the life of an Army wife.
I'm going to go get my nails done with a friend. I'm excited. With work, my hands really look like poop.
Till next time all...